Day Ten: One Confession.

Well.

I guess you could say I’m always starting shit that doesn’t need to happen. I thought high school would be my fresh start, but it wasn’t exactly the start I wanted.

Freshman year was like, “OMGAWD, I want this year to be over already!”.

Sophomore year was like, “I’m tired of being in shit like this.”

Now I’m hoping to break through this kinda shit Junior year. But I can’t avoid it forever.

Day Nine: Two Smileys That Describe Your Life Right Now.

1) =D

2) >=/

Day Eight: Three Turn Ons.

1) Appearance. I have specifics, but that’s not something I wanna give out. ^^

2) Interest in Kpop. =]

3) Outgoing/down to earth personality.

Day Seven: Four Turn Offs.

It took me a while to think of stuff for this.

1) Smoker.

2) Close-minded/not open to things.

3) Conceited. 

4) Airhead/forgets things all the time.  

Day Six: Five People Who Mean a Lot (In No Order Whatsoever).

I don’t wanna name specifics, because I know I’ll leave hella people out.

1) Family.

2) Friends.

=]

Day Five: Six Things You Wish You’d Never Done.

1) Not finishing any of my inspirational projects.

2) Starting shit with specific people.

3) Not putting too much effort into my grades sophomore year.

4) Start that bad habit of biting my nails.

5) Talk to you on AIM after a long time. Honestly, listening to a specific kpop ballad on repeat helped me make that decision.

6) Not getting outta my dark aftershock quick enough. It took me a while to break free from it. 

Day Four: Seven Things That Cross Your Mind a Lot.

1) How are you doing after all this time?

2) I hope my dad never finds my tumblr, and get into another fight and shit.

3) I’m really sorry.

4) What’s gonna happen once college starts? SATs too! =[  

5) I wish things ended differently, but I’m happy that it turned me into the person I am now.

6) I’m so lucky I haven’t had a class with you since freshman year. 

7) Should I say hi or keep quiet? 

Day Three: Eight Ways to Win Your Heart.

It took me a while to get this down.

1) Be yourself. I don’t like anyone being fake.

2) Be confident. That gets my attention.

3) Talk with me frequently! It gives me insight on your personality.

4) Hang out often, even if it’s at school. But we should at least make plans outside of school though!

5) An interest in Kpop doesn’t hurt. =]

6) Be random and spontaneous. It catches me off guard, and would probably make my day.

7) Say hi or something! Especially in the hallways, haha.

8) February 25.

Day Two: Nine Things About Yourself.

1) Joseph Culaton.

1) I’m a Kpop addict. However, SHINee is my ultimate bias.

2) I prefer having long hair, compared to short hair. >.<

3) My actions don’t always reflect my intentions.

4) I’m shy, and I tend to fall for certain people. A lot.

5) I used to be an all Honors student, but I ended up overloading myself with too much stuff. Now I don’t take any honors classes, except for Honors Choir.

6) I get inspired easily, but the inspiration usually turns into an unfinished project. I have a lot of those, but I have 4 major ones right now. I’m really trying to make them a secret though. ;]

7) The only time I’m conscious about what I’m wearing is when it looks like the clothes don’t fit me. And if it looks decent enough.

8) I’m currently in the process of getting my permit. STILL. All I need is 6 hours of on the road lessons, then I can finally take the permit test. Haha.

9) Simple and Clean started it all. Kingdom Hearts fan for life. I haven’t been keeping up with all the new releases because I can’t afford to pay for another system other than the ones I already have. I’m content with just Kingdom Hearts 1, Kingdom Hearts 2, and Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories. =] 

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1) Honestly, everything in my life changed once I had a different view towards you. From my relationship towards my parents, the people I hang out with, my personality, my interests, and seriously everything else. I can’t believe that a single person could affect me so much, but you have and I’m thankful for that. Since that fateful day, I’m always (used to/getting over) having this internal battle thinking about you. We’ve known each other for hella long, but things are always up and down. I can’t believe I was stupid enough to talk to you after years. But then I felt like I couldn’t get you to talk about anything else other than ________. And I had so much work to do at the time, that I just stopped talking to you. We may not go to the same school anymore, but I guess things happen for a reason. I guess we’ll see each other from time to time, but things won’t ever be the same. 

2) Well, you’ve changed a lot too! We annoy each other everyday, and I think I’m the reason you’re into Kpop. Well sorta, you’re not as into it as me! HAHA! If you ever need anything, I’m here. Mmkay? Btw, stop coming into my room unexpectedly, just to use the mirror in my room. When there are OTHER mirrors in the house. -_______________-

3) I used we could’ve started differently. The reason why I didn’t really wanna talk to you was because I was still feeling hella down over person #1. I felt like everything was too much at the time, and I didn’t feel my best. I wish we could’ve talked at least. Now I feel like a different, more confident guy. And I think I could’ve been more open to someone like you. Now things are awkward like shit. Poking you in the hallway, or just trying to say hi just won’t cut it anymore more. I give up.

4) I really like spending time with you. You’re really a welcoming, and friendly spirit. ^^ I think you’re the person that brought me outta that dark aftershock from person #1. I don’t feel as lonely anymore now that I’ve found someone who likes K-Pop too! SHINee ftw! It’s hard to believe that you were really lonely too before high school, yanno? Now that I think about it, I wanna ask if you’d like to go with me. But you’re taller than me though and I’m like, “-______________-“. Hopefully I’ll grow a few inches. HAHA.

5) I’m glad I found someone like you too, although you’re hella shy sometimes. I find it hilarious every time you spaz out when we go to Sanrio, Japantown or any Asian store. HAHAH! I’m wondering if I wanna ask you instead though. =/ ARGH. I don’t need the stress right now.

6) I love you for helping start ACDE. =] It’s really fun having Culture Week practice, and watching Asian dramas during collab. And talking about Kpop during choir class. It really makes my day whenever we’re talking about the latest news on the groups’ comebacks and debuts. OPH, you should check out my Kpop blog! Tell me what you think, because I’m not feeling very confident in it atm. =/

7) Whelps. I think things got complicated when you asked me about that trip. Back then, I was still in that dark aftershock from person #1 (Yeah, I was in some pretty deep shit at the time). Ianno, I didn’t really wanna talk about it. And then I kept thinking about you just because I got scared you figured out why I was being so vague in my responses. And then my thoughts turned the other way around, and… The rest is history. Now I really regret it because I don’t wanna be awkward with a person I don’t have to be. =[

8) I’m really sorry. I just can’t fix my actions. I feel like I changed your life, and made things move way too fast than you wanted it to be. Apologizing for it won’t do shit anymore. It was unintentional, I swear. I just never hurt someone like that before and I didn’t know how to respond. I wish I didn’t have to see you again, so I can’t cause more shit in your life. 

9) In person, you’re an awkward person to be around. But when we’re both online, everything’s good and cheery and stuff! Ianno, to me it seems more natural talking to you online than in person. I have my suspicions though. I think just because I spoke up for my beliefs in Moral Theology last year, you have a more cautious eye around me. Well, you know what? ________.

10) I’m really thankful to have a friend like you. We don’t hang out as much, but we still talk as though there’s nothing wrong with distance. =] I have vented out to you everything that’s ever happened in my life, even if you don’t know the people I’m talking about. xD I hope we stay in touch after college though.